i think i just did something stupid

i just turned down a job. lol.

but see i applied at book people (best bookstore ever) and the woman that was talking to me works in gifts, which sure i could work in and enjoy, but she usually hires full time and she only has two people that work for her, and i have to leave for college again after the summer and i dont want to do that to anyone. so i turned it down.

but apparently i get a little star of awesome by my name because i was honest and said i would rather work with books, so.....thats good, i REALLY hope i get this job. money over the summer would be sooo nice. and money at a bookstore where i would be spending alot of the money anyway lol yay employee discounts! :D

*crosses fingers* i SOOOO hope i get this job! i really really hope i do! its not like i wont work every holiday that i come home, cause i will. and they wont have to retrain anyone, just re hire me and woo! *crosses fingers* i know i'm on the short list, and i know someone who works there so that helps....oh man do i ever want this job!

ha ha oh college

what do you do when you're out of money, hungry, and all you have in your dorm is two packets of ketchup, a jar of peanutbutter, a packet of miso soup and some spices?

make peanut soup of course!

College peanut soup:

about half a chili bowl of water, heated up for about two minutes.

three-four large spoonfuls of natural peanut butter (dunno how jif and those kinds would work :/)

two packets of ketchup

powered miso soup to taste.

red pepper and turmeric.

this is surprisingly REALLY good XD

ha ha oh college food experiments.

this was my mom's idea XD if i end up dead tomorrow morning its her fault LOL

MILES TEA CUPS! OMG I NEED ONE!

http://www.shopncsx.com/gyakutenkenjiteacupe-capcomexclusive.aspx

and they're so GAAAYYYYYY. i think capcom has officially outed Miles, i mean come on, scalloped fine china tea cups with magenta swirly things on them? yeah GAY.

i need one i need one i need one i need one!

this is like....two of my favorite things ever! Miles and tea! D8 oh man! need like......NAO! oh man and i can drink from it while playing GK when it comes out oh man.....man i need it! D8

summer job NAO! need money for gay Miles tea! D8

the greatest bag in the whole world

i used to have this knit (i think, could have been crochet) bag. it was the best bag ever. it was natural undyed cream colored cotton (-edit- ok no i think it might have been hemp) and it smelled like hippies :D (not the stinky kind that dont bathe, the good smelly kind :D) i used to take this bag freaking everywhere and used it for everything, it was like my staple fashion accessory. it was the best bag ever! but then it slowly started falling apart, it was kinda lacy and stuff with wide holes and things, it was pretty but not that durable. i just remembered it when i saw something kinda similar on ravelry. i have decided....i need to re-create this bag, really badly cause now i want it alot! D8

*skips off to try and find a pattern for something similar*

really weird dream last night

so yeah my school is closing and i have to go somewhere else and it scares me alot. so last night i had a dream about it. i apparently got this free ride to this school in san antonio, and yeah it was a good deal but like i've said many times i dont want to go back to texas i dont want to leave new mexico i love it here. but then in my dream i didnt get accepted to UNM because i sent in my application too late (which is one of my fears at the moment) and so i kind of had to take this. only (and this is where it gets weird) i could only take the train there, and i had to take the train from this weird station that i had never heard of before and didnt even know existed. it was like this REALLY nice old kinda steampunk-y train station. but also i had to leave immediately and i didnt have time to pack my stuff so my mom was going to have to and then send it to me.......which freaked me out because i have things that she doesnt need to know about in my room O.O. but i had to or i was going to be collegeless and i'm afraid if i take a year off i wont get back into it you know? so my mom and i rushed to the station and got my ticket and also what was my schedule and room number for the school and i had to run to catch the train, i did catch it but it was still scary, i had never been to this college, i was going back to texas like i DIDNT want to and i didnt know ANYONE on this train. then i woke up....ugh that was just......i hate dreams like that.

mmmm sleep meditation :)

no not napping, yes its similar but you feel even BETTER afterwards than with a nap, like you know how a nap just makes you more tired? well this wakes you up ^__^

i've been feeling really tired and weird lately and kinda out of whack. i think my chakras were all out of alignment and stuff. so i put on my meditation music lied down in a good meditative position, opened my window to the outside air and promptly fell asleep. just woke up and i feel freaking GREAT! :D

yayyyyy!

also yeah i wanna take up yoga/regular meditation again over the summer along with exercise :3 balance it all out and stuff.

man i feel great, like i could do cartwheels if i knew how....or i could just snuggle down and continue feeling all content and comfy.

except i need to pee first......LOL

mmmm i'm so glad i finished my classwork early and left that was exactly what i needed :)

Waffles

i've been craving them all week and technically i've woken up at a normal hour so that yes i could go get myself a waffle in the caf.....but i'm a lazy bum who cant stop sneezing and doesnt want to move/get dressed. also i have a weird pounding headache in the side of my head.....i think i forgot caffine for two days in a row again >_<

now...lets see if i can get this headband i'm knitting done before class today :D

dum di dum dum

havent posted here in a while....but i've been neglecting the internets lately :/

i should get dressed and go get some breakfast.....but i dont have the motivation to XD

crocheting...

i've got the chain stitch down....thats easy....but i obviously dont have the right sized yarn for my hook/right sized hook for any of my yarn.

either my hook is too small or my yarn is all too big for the hook i have T^T i cant seem to be able to get past one row of chains and then one other row thingie...:(

major suckage...i want to practice so i can get good and make my mommy some cute little owly thingies but if i dont have the right hook/yarn then i cant praaaaaactice >_< i get two rows and then its like "well this isnt working" and i gotta pull it all out D8

boo stupid tiny crochet hook you're too small! bleehhhhh poopie and i was all excited about learning how! :(

*sits and pouts*

stuff and things....

woo three posts in one day!

ok now i havent taken my ADD pills today like i was going to so my brain has been all over the place thinking about things.

i've realized, that while i dont really think of myself in any sterotype category, other people do and ok yeah thats a duh, people usually stereotype people then we dont usually stereotype ourselves. but i mean like there are some people that arent easyily categorized and i always thought i was one of those. because yeah i'm a vegetarian hippie chick, but i listen to Metal and have pink hair. i dress in all black somedays and then tie-dye the next day. i dont really feel like i have a stuck style in anything really. but apparently i have been dubbed a "punk kid" now trust me i dont mind being a little punk kid and yeah i like punk music and dress kinda punky quite often. i just....never realized i had a REAL category. i find this fascinating lol.

i usually categorize myself as just eclectic lol

oh well, i guess it comes with the pink hair XD

omg i have to learn to crochet NOW!

i just found the cutest thing on the face of the planet....these little crochet owls...omg...they're just so freaking adorable! D8 i need to make them now!

my mom NEEDS one...or two...or five LOL

i just went through everyone's FOs on ravelry of these things and EEEEEE!! SO CUUUUUUUTE!! omg they're just......eeeee!!!

couldnt sleep last night...

...it was pretty bad...i couldnt sleep until like 4....i even tried knitting which usually helps me sleep but i STILL couldnt sleep till four >_<

although i DID figure out a new headband pattern thingie i can make! :D yay for new patterns 8D

*goes back to finishing this thing*

....uhh....

it was beautiful weather for the last week or so....and now its snowing.....what the hell NM!? XD

*goes back to getting dressed only with now an added snow jacket involved*

when a love of japan and knitting clash.

you get me all pissed off that there are no REAL knitted kimono/yukata patterns, just a bunch of silly wrap sweaters.

although now that i think about it they're really just made of a bunch of rectangle shaped pieces of fabric........i could probably make one myself, not that difficultly :/

*skips off to design one*

loud people....

need to stfu when they're in the quiet hall.....i moved here for a reason...and ok during the day its not so bad but when they're REALLY loud during the day......that pisses me off....am i the only one that moved here for some damn peace and quiet!? DX

now i get having fun and being loud, i'm not like an old curmudgeoun or anything.....be loud! have fun! enjoy life!....just enjoy life and have fun quieter in places that have specific rules about noise levels....and if you were put here even though you didnt ask for the quiet floor....tough, deal with it, go be loud somewhere where people appreciate it....your friends have dorm rooms too, you dont have to hang out here.......lol go away! XD

you know you've had too much knitting when...

your dreams consist of you finishing your current project.....and thats about it.

LOL

got two packages! :D

"today" i got two packages in the mail! (by the time i post this it will probably be officially the next day so...lets say today lol cause right now its 11:55 PM)

one was from my mommy...and it was squishy and i was thinking "did my mom send me a plushie of some kind?" and yes....yes she did....a plushie of Grouchy Smurf LOL because thats how i feel about everything right about now....not that i'm no longer an optimistic sparkly shiny pink person....just that now i'm a GROUCHY optimistic sparkly shiny pink person LOL if that makes any sense what so ever XD

and the second package was from Knit Picks! :D

that site is like crack.....good cheap crack....LOL aaaanyway they had a REALLY GOOD sale on sock knitting books and i've been wanting to knit socks for a while now so i decided that i should get a book so that i could lean over the summer when i finally have some time and HOPEFULLY money from a job to get yarn and things to actually make the socks. so that book came in and i think i know what i'm going to knit first! :D and also my bright ass, burn your corneas pink yarn came in! :D yayyy i can finally make the mitts i wanna make out of it....i hope there's a little bit left so i can make a pink spider out of it and name it hide....other wise i just might have to buy more of this stuff lol

designing the pattern for these gauntlet/mitt things as i go! should be up in here once i finish the first one! :D so wheee!....i think i need a sparkly bead.....but maybe these ones will go without :/

weird dream last night

i know it involved Gateau and Marron..........and keeping someone from getting.....something...something really stupid....i wish i could remember it cause it was bizarre.....but its completely gone....i hate that! DX

stuff and things (certain anime spoilers)

kinda bored before english class......soooo yeah....strawberry pocky and earl grey tea with cream for breakfast....thats healthy......right?....<_<.......>_>

aaaanyway yeah........still havent finished those mitts DX

i tried yesterday while i was watching Sorcerer Hunters but..........that anime is way too engrosing to knit while watching O.O

-SPOILERS FOR SH AHEAD!-

and omg i CRIED MY LITTLE EYES OUT WHEN MARRON DIED AND THEN GATEAU T^T omg that was the sweetest and most sad thing ever!

"you may have lost a brother but i lost something too!" BREAK MY HEART WILL YOU GATEAU!? D8 OMG! you have no idea how much that made me cry!!!!!

gods soul mates are sooo cute!!!!! its not fair lol.

oh and then in their next life how Marron was actually GAYER than in his previous life....yeah i thought that was impossible....but a pink turtle neck proved me wrong XD

oh dear that anime is fun and exciting and cuuuuuuuute

although i'll be honest Carrot is an idiot because he's really attractive, if he wasnt such an obvious pervert he could definately get the ladies (though maybe he doesnt REALLY wanna get the ladies other than a certain two ;) )

ooooh man Marron and Gateau are now on my list of yaoi couples that i LOVE.....gods the list gets longer XD

but i kinda have a thing for the pairings that are one manly guy and one pretty boy...those are cute....and i also have a thing for soul mates, cause thats just the best thing ever! <3 <3 <3

ok end anime dork rant....i should get dressed for class XD

pocky, anime, and the most crack-fabulous love letter ever....

GODDAMN I LOVE MY GIRLFRIEND!!!!!! <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3

i just got my anniversary present in the mail today! pocky tied with ribbon, all of sorcerer hunters and a love letter written in chat form with Cid and Hojo involved XD

THIS is why i love this woman....well ok not the only reason but this just proves that she gets me LOL

and the lovely dear even killed her beloved scientist for me XD (there's a chibi of him all tied up and hanging from the happy 6th (month) anniversary banner she drew XD)

lol omg this made my freaking day! *tears open one of the chocolate pocky boxes* mmmm tastes like kissing.....

*gigglesnort*

my graphic design teacher called me a telletubby today because i was wearing my pink fluffy kitty hat XD lol made me day.

people who knit their first project ever on nice yarn....

...suck.

lol i mean seriously you're supposed to start out on shitty heart saver yarn and either knit the ugliest thing in the world ever on it or frog it about 15 billion times before it finally doesnt look like a yarn monster threw up your project. i mean come on. who the fuck STARTS with Noro!?

your first scarf is NOT supposed to be pretty its supposed to be HIDEOUS but yet you still love it and are massively proud of it, even in its ugly yarn monster barf-dom.

now maybe its older people with real jobs that start out with pretty things like Noro but i still find that to be wrong, i mean come on, the ugly scarf is like a right of knitting passage so someday when you're sitting around at the old folks home, knitting some crazy ass complicated afghan or something you can talk with the olther old ladies (and men too!) about your ugly ass first knitting projects and laugh your asses off. but if you're the ONE that started with Noro and had a scarf that actually looked good you're totally gonna feel left out. save buying nice yarn for when you've made a few things first, get some shitty yarn that you can fuck up on, thats how you learn...by fucking up! (seriously! i discovered seed stitch this way when i was trying to do 1x1 rib for the first time and totally messed it up XD...but i LOVE seed stitch now)

-end rant-

lol its just that that annoys me when people just starting out buy nice yarn and i've been knitting for almost five years now and have never had anything as nice as Noro to call my own.....and i guess i'm just silly and feel like i deserve it and they dont? lol thats dumb but how i feel XD

oh well....on a lighter note i finished the knitting portion of Rowan's comission scarf....now i gotta sew in the yarn ends and add fringe but the scarf is pissing me off at the moment lol so yeah taking a break and knitting the other of my seed stitch mitts :3 yay for seed stitch! :D i <3 seed stitch

omg yay!!!

my evil back pain of doom didnt show up last night! i got to sleep! 8D omg yayyyyyy~!!!!! 8DDDDDDDD

oh gods TEA! <3

i cant get over how good tea is....every time i drink it its like....still JUST as good and it NEVER gets old....


my fave teas:
Earl Grey (preferably Bigalow but Tazo's is goods too)
Green Tea Kombucha (Yogi brand, in caffinated and non caffinated, best green tea on the face of the planet)
Tazo's Calming (yeah its an herbal but omg its like...so good i swear it should be illegal D8)
Chocolate Mate (OM NOM NOM! mate AND chocolate? D8 oh gods its so good!)

tea tea tea! i love tea! now get me some goddamn tea! lol

*sips her kombucha* SO DAMN GOOD! D8

*giggle giggle*

i've had the Divinyls "I Touch Myself" stuck in my head for days now so i finally caved in and bought it off itunes XD

i have it on repeat on my player.....gods this song is fun to sing over and over again....its got some GREAT lines in it man, some GREAT lines!

and i want to write a song fic.....holy crap i've NEVER done that before O.O

usually i find song fics kinda annoying but....oh man this is just too good to pass up XD....not i just gotta decide what pairing to use hmmmm *scratches chin and twirls non existent beard*

Cid/Vin?

Phoenix/Miles?

Yuki/Shuichi?

oh wow that last one O.O....that could REALLY work O.O

OMG I HAS IDEA! D8

*runs off to write!!!!*

kitty hat needs paws! D8

and i dont have enough of the Italia colorway to make both! i hope the person i found that has it for trade or sell will cause i want some arm warmers and leg warmers to match >D

NYAAA~ =^.^=

*crosses fingers and hopes for the best*

its finally hit me....

i really WONT be coming back here next year.....CSF really will NOT exist......i have to go somewhere else....but i dont want to go anywhere else...i like it here....this is the only place i liked....i have friends here.....i feel AT HOME here......i dont WANT to go to UNM i dont WANT to!!!! and yes i guess that makes me a little childish but can you really blame me for not wanting to leave my HOME, for not wanting the place that i feel RIGHT in? can you really blame me for being silly and not wanting to leave? its scary to have the UNM application staring at me in the face, its terrifying its like its telling me to give up....BUT I DONT BELIEVE IN GIVING UP SO WHY DO I HAVE TO!?

i feel so stupid to be crying over something that i knew was coming and that i saw coming from miles away. and yet here i am, tears dripping down my face as i write this......why does life have to suck some times? why do politicians have to SUCK SO HARD THAT THEY ALL NEED TO JUST FUCKING STOP BEING ASSHOLES ALREADY! fucking legislation, thanks for signing my HOMEs death warrent, thanks alot assholes. yeah sure there are some awesome ones that fought for us and those i appreciate with all my heart but obviously there weren't enough of them to have it actually matter.

how am i supposed to fill out this application to some place that isnt my HOME when i cant stop crying/it makes me depressed.

i dont think they realize what they've done, even the manly guys have admitted that they've cried over CSF.....do they really realize how many hearts they've broken?

i'm supposed to go turn this in my 1:30......i dont think i'll be able to get back there by then.......i barely held it together while there.........i dont want to leave my HOME i dont want to.

D8 WHAAAA!?

there are no jrock fan clubs on Ravelry! D8 what....the.....hell!? there are thousands of anime fan clubs...or well at least a bunch of them....and video game clubs.....

i mean there isnt even a Gackt Club D8.....i thought for sure.....and not and X japan club either D8 th-......this makes me so sad! T^T but but but.......Jrockers are so cuuuuute.....and i cant be the only person that wants to knit for them....can i? D8 i mean..............an i honestly the only one that wants to knit Toshi a NON UGLY sweater!? D8 really!? like for serious!?....i was even gonna knit him a scarf and have my friend take it to the X concert for him!....before the tour got all wonkified and now she has no idea when she'll get to go.

i think maybe i should rectify this....only running a club thinger seems annoying LOL.....though.....i think....yeah i gotta do this....because thats just......SAD! D8

i also cant be the only person who knits to jrock.....seriously people hide is GREAT to knit to! 8D

-EDIT- heeeeee i started one >D....this is hilarious....i just started a club about the two things that own my soul LOL

:D

well i dont hurt as bad as i did so thats good...painkillers are my friend......that and laying down and heat pads lol

aaaaanyway taking a break from all my other knitting projects to just start and finish something hella easy because i need to. so i found a extra easy pattern for a kitty hat so i'm making one. i took a break to eat though. the care package from my mommy came in today so i have rice from a pouch! 8D and omg the best herbal tea i have ever had in my entire life O.O its Yogi brand tea and its called calming. it has hibiscus in it which i USUALLY dont like but in this its soooo good omg. hot damn thats so good it almost feels illegal XD

ohhh man i hope this kitty hat isnt too big when i finish it :/

ow.....owowowowowowowow!!!! :(

owwie owwie! full body cramps FUCK! owww.....why wont they go away thats so not cool!? i thought they were goooooone...they were gone yesterday! why are they back? ugh.......and i wanted to go to class today.....and i want pasta too and thats whats for lunch and i'll feel like an asshole if i can get myself up for food but not for class >_<

on a lighter note my knitting book came in yesterday! ^__^ The Knitting Goddess has some pretty cool stories in it and some very pretty patterns....only problem is that all the yarns she suggests are so expensive and i'm on COLLEGE STUDENT WITH NO JOB budget...so i has no monies T^T

like i WISH i could afford Noro yarns.....you have no idea how much i wish i could have Noro yarns....but like i said....no monies....and then some of the yarns she suggests have been discontinued.......and i've been trying to find what weight they were......but so far i cant! D8 so i dont know what to buy for a substitute! oh noes!

goddamn i want some pasta and my mail....but owwie i dont want to move T^T